But, speaking of that body of yours, can we talk about your breasts? How they were perfectly designed to nourish your little one to help her grow and be healthy? Well, this natural process, breastfeeding, did not come naturally to me at all. At the lowest points, I conflated my ability to breastfeed with my ability to be a good mom.
Due to a nasty infection in my womb, I ended up in the operating theatre after a marathon labour that had lasted for days. As a result, my new-born baby was taken to the children´s unit for intensive care after he was born and I was left behind bewildered, trying to come to terms with my own ill-health and having been stripped of those beautiful first days with a new baby. When I finally could hold my son, after he repeatedly refused to latch on, I fed him with plastic syringes and tiny cups as if he was a bird. As his weight dropped, I recall tearfully giving him formula in what felt like, at the time, my first major failure as a mum. Why couldn’t I do this?
Arriving home, for the first several weeks, my very patient husband supported me through a majority of our nearly hourly nursing sessions. Nothing could have prepared me for the scale of the hunger, thirst, and exhaustion I felt. Without any way of establishing a schedule, I felt unmoored, lonely and at times, resentful of my lost autonomy.
Looking back, I wish someone had said to me that it´s ok, you´re doing your best. The pressure to breastfeed perfectly no matter your circumstances can be intense, but only you understand your individual situation and naturally care for your baby the best you can. Because breastfeeding can be challenging at best of times, we have put together some ideas on how to get back to the high side if you ever experience some of the lows that are common along a breastfeeding journey.